.Monday, November 16, 2009'Monday, November 16, 2009
well ya friendship is all about someone who knows all about u and accept the way u are. i agree. however, u may wan to think about who is the one who could not accept the fact that i had a boyfriend and kept on saying about "how i miss those days that u dun haf a boyfriend" am i wrong? u are the one who cant accept me first, and so can u please stop whinning over this kind of things? i know that u felt lonely,cuz now i spent lesser time with u. i understand, but can u PLEASE DUN DISTURB ME DURING THIS PERIOD OF TIME WHEN I AM HAVING MY A LEVELS? IT AFFECT MY MOOD TO A LARGE EXTENT!!! haiz, probably u wont understand how i feel. anyway, i have already promised to go out with u after my exams rite? please dun make me change my mind.i can still try to accept the fact that u r materialistic, and i would be willing to go shopping with u if that makes u happy. haiz. but, not always going out = shopping. cus i hate shopping.
i really regretted for going to facebook, and seeing such post by u. makes me feel sad? i think is more like disappointed ba. maybe during my last post i said something hurtful. but that is truely how i felt and i know that u hate people who are hypocrites. maybe u changed? i dunno. haiz. u win. cuz now i dun haf any mood to study now. thanks to u. haiz. whatever. A levels only rite? can just repeat if i fail rite? haiz. =(
why do u have to be like this? i dun understand. busy = studying/ resting. why must u misinterpret it to busy = together with boyfriend and dun disturb? haiz. and probably i should make it clear to u that please only talk to me when my status shows green on msn. i thought i made it so clear to u on msn? haiz but u insist on disturbing me. u know something? many times i was awoken by the msn alert due to u messaging me, maybe u have not realise that. away = sleeping. short and sweet. understand? haiz. anyone would equally felt irritated if someone disturb u when u r sleeping or studying rite? i know that u always like to appear offline/away/busy even when u r online. but by doing so u r abusing the status that the creator of msn creates which helps people to differentiate who is away/busy or nt online. haiz. u think that away = busy = online = appear offline when in actual fact it does not. the words literally tell u about what the person is doing now. haiz i hope u understand. i really hope so.
i dunno why my blog is like a place for me to complain. i thought a blog is somewhere u share ur joy with others? but somehow it deviates from that objective. maybe is really just somewhere where i can vent my anger without physically hurting someone ba. but i know mentally someone will get hurt. i dunno anymore. should i let go? of this valuable and precious thing that i held for so long? because it is so heavy now that it is hurting me. haiz. i hope that my hand can withstand, but when it cannot,forgive me that i had to let go. i'm sorry. it may hurts, but maybe that is what we all need to grow up and mature. haiz.
maybe we should have a deep talk when we meet. i hope that is when everything settles. either for the good or the bad. because i dun wan to think of it now, since tml is my chem paper. i wished that u would nt do anything more to piss me off,i hope, since now i regain the calm to study again. please.. leave me alone. =(
+++++ i cherish every moment being with you=)... thanks for being there for me and painted my life with more colours+++++
.Wednesday, November 04, 2009'Wednesday, November 04, 2009
i have to agree to this phrase“旁观者清，当局者迷” sometimes i wonder,why people only find faults within others,while they never reflect upon their own actions,their own behaviours. why after getting in a relationship u changed.. why u keep ignoring me after u had a partner... dun forget ur frens after u had a partner....... well first i want to ask,u think i am so free this year? i AM my A levels now at this period of time and it IS making me so busy. u think, i have time to go out and have fun? whenever i had time i spent it on studying,resting and probably playing while eating. u think, i ignore u because of a relationship? second, u said i changed, but why u never look at urself? did u changed, probably u wanted to argue that u didnt. i still remember in the past,we often said how much we hate those materialistic people, and how much those people are dumb, wasting their precious money on materialistic stuffs. now, look at urself, arent u becoming one of those mentioned above? u crazed over handphones, clothes, shoes and even make-up. that time, during ur birthday,we were deciding on what present to get for u, and u know what? all the present thought about by zona were perfume, clothes... those things!! see how much u have changed? even zona realised it. did u? i also told u, many times, about those things arent important, if u still remember. but i guess,nothing went in ur head. it was a hint, to tell u that i dun like the current u, and i still longed the past u, the one who laughed at every single thing, always playing with us, joking on every single thing and also all the studying time together. i really hope, u can remember this, materialistic things wont last, they will spoil as time goes by, but friendship stays.
+++++ i cherish every moment being with you=)... thanks for being there for me and painted my life with more colours+++++
.Monday, October 19, 2009'Monday, October 19, 2009
haiz... sometimes i wonder what makes a family... i always thought that a family is one that everyone is harmonious and happy together, maybe there will be little conflicts here and there, but somehow the conflicts will be resolved eventually with the best possible solution... however, this seems to be a fantasy? haha maybe it seems so for my family (+relatives), after hearing from my mum what had happened during their family meeting this evening =.=
mum came home quite late, about 10 plus, which normally is quite late for anyone in the family except my father. she went for a family meeting with my patental side of the relatives, on behalf of my father, who was working till now haven come home =.= anyway, the meeting is about some housing problems.. it seems like my grandma wanted to remove her name from the combined house with her youngest son, which was the 6th child of the family, but to do so the son has to give her a sum of 100,000 which apparently he do not want to do so. to make things worse, he would not even come for the meeting, instead staying at home. the siblings were furious and rushed up to his house to "make an agreement", which of course, turn out to be a very fierce argument, which also relate to something like not giving my grandma the monthly allowance as what the daughters and sons should do. the eldest son of the family, was what we called the happy man, and that we have never seen him being angry over anything before, as far as i can remember. however, today, he erupted. he banged the table and they started arguing. after a while, luckily, they stop their argument but the problem was not solved and my mother went home.
after hearing this, my sister, my mother and i were talking and somehow discussing about this issue. i personally feel that they should not quarrel over such things and that everyone should give a certain portion of their money to their mother, no matter what she is the one who raise them up and take care of them when they were young. i don't understand why my father would not give my grandma the money. the amount is just 250 dollars, not alot too. though i agree that my father had his own difficulties and that his money were hard-earned money. but the whole family (mine) believes that if he could just reduce the amount spent in gambling, drinking and smoking, he would have sufficient amount to give my grandma. as for the removal of the name from the house, i would stand on the other side, where i would disagree in removing the name from the house, since a large sum of money is involved and i personally think that my uncle do not have the capability to pay such large amount. unless, my grandma decides to just remove the name and don't receive any sum from my uncle.
another issue raised during the argument is about taking care of my grandma, where and who she should live with. she is now living with my second aunt (5th child) and her family where their flat is loaned from someone else. they were complaining that the amount required is too huge for them and that they are unable to sustain it. my sister thought about the first aunt (4th child), she was so rich that she could keep changing her car, designing her house and go travelling often, why not taking care of my grandma, i wonder why too.. but probably she thought that it was too troublesome and she would not want to take it........ and the argument goes on..........
anyway, back to my point, a family, i thought is harmonious, but this family seems to be so..... how should i say? erm stingy? or just do not know what is give and take? i know probably i am not in the position to say this, since my father is one of the "culprit", and also i am too young , according to them, to make any comments on such family issues. but i don't know, when i was young, it seems like the tension is there, always, and that siblings cannot trust each other, which i wonder why... haiz... it all concludes to this: 家家有本难念的经， maybe other families have other issues, or not ( if they are lucky).
+++++ i cherish every moment being with you=)... thanks for being there for me and painted my life with more colours+++++
