a mask, is used to cover one's face from other people, and i guess the purpose is to prevent other people from seeing the expression as well as the appearance of that person wearing the mask. a mask can also beautify one's appearance. many women went to the beauty parlon to put on a mask for themselves and the next moment when u see them, they are so different that u couldn't recognise them.

i also put a mask on my face, wherever i go. the purpose for doing so, was mentioned earlier, to prevent other people from seeing my expression. even when going to school, i often wear a mask to protect myself. i may appear very happy and hyper to many people, but the truth is that i was super emo most of the times. i noe it seems unbelievable to many people, but this is the truth. even for myself, after wearing the mask for such a long time, it has become part of me and i could not even differentiate the true me and the masked me. it was such a perfect mask that i have created for myself.

however, nothing is perfect in this world and my mask was not perfect as well. this mask was broken some time back. it was after promos. i just breakdown in front of some people and they were quite shocked. i knew they will act like that, so i was not surprised. they were worried about the reasons why i cried and this makes me realise one thing: there are actually people who cares for me and they are worried when i'm sad, other than my parents. i realise that there was no need to wear a mask to cover my emotions and shut everyone from entering my inner space.

however, i could not remove the mask. it has become part of me. i shut the door between the outside world and my inner space. i rejected those care and concern that all the people gave me when i'm sad. i did not do it on purpose, it was because it seems a long time ever since someone enters that inner space and i have already adapted to the life without any care and concern. so, if i ever scold u when u are trying to console me when i'm feeling down, i'm sorry for that. is not that i don't want that. i desire that for a long time ago, so long that i have already forgotten how am i going to react when someone cares for me. so long, so long...

life after promos is quite bland... everyday 2 hours of chinese and 3 hours of PW. if u say is disgusting, i will have to agree with u... haha... imagine, the 2 hours of chinese, we are just doing tonnes and tonnes of 阅读理解. so far, we have done 18 阅读理解（一），currently doing 28 pages of 阅读理解（二）and dunno how many pages of 阅读理解（三）. well, for the H2 students, we dun have those formal lessons of H1 CL, is just some lessons like tuitions which is SUPER boring!!!! haha... but then no choice, need take A level soon... must chiong!! 3 hours of PW is seriously damn disgusting!! we are doing presentations everyday and seriously is EVERYDAY!! haha... but then this one is much more interesting than the 2 hours of chinese...

hmm... we also have lectures for maths, chem and physics, even after promos. but then, i wonder, how many people actually listened during the lecture? exams are over and many of the people are in holiday mood and hence who will have the mood to listen to lectures? haha... i didnt like the lectures. maths was the application of integration, which was quite important and i forced myself to listen... chem was about thermochemistry which was super erm... weird. cuz this topic we have learned it from sec sch and i remember the first lecture was exactly sec sch stuffs, except for the standard enthalpy change and standard conditions. haha... which means, the first 2 lectures were super boring la. physics was much better, it was on electric field and except for the lecturer who was a bit weird, the rest was interesting... haha...

haiz, i now love the days before the promos. although it was tiring and stressful, but it was more meaningful and purposeful. now, it seems like there is no purpose in coming sch LOL and i'm speaking the truth now... LOL

看着马路上的车辆来来去去，我不禁想到：朋友，不也是这样吗？朋友在你的人生旅途来来去去，似乎没有一个能够放慢脚步，陪伴你一起走完人生的旅途。

从小到大，我们到底有多少朋友？是不是多到数不清呢？那我再问，那有几个是在你开心是陪你一起欢呼，在你失落时再你旁安慰你？这，我想，一定不多。真心朋友难找，就算找到了，他也可能随时被其他人抢走。

我在人生旅途中遇到你，你也放慢了脚步，陪着我走完一年的旅途。我开心的时候，你会陪着我一起笑，我失落的时候，你会陪着我一起哭。别人会说，我找到了真心的朋友。确实如此，你的确是我真心的朋友。但，现在的你，似乎加快了你的脚步，与我的距离越来越远。我该不该伸出手将你拉住，告诉你我不能没有你？请你不要离开呢？

我的决定，是潇洒的送你走。我不会挽留你，因为我相信你前方也会有另一个你会遇到的朋友。我不会这么自私，强迫你留下。而且，我相信没有你的日子会让我变得跟坚强，变成不怕风吹日晒的油加里。

today, i wanted to talk about a story called《命运的迹线》。this is a short story in my CLL where there is a boy named 高小明 who just knew that he can only live till 30 years old. he was so frustrated as he planned to become a poet in the future and wanted to write 30 poems and he even planned about the content of his poems. he is now 13 years old, which means he have only 17 years old to live. he could not believe in this fact and went home to ask his parents about the age of his grand parents when they die. he even told his parents that he could only live till 30 years old. his parents, instead of consoling him, they just told him that such beliefs are superstitious. they did not even put themselves in the boy's shoes and have a feel about the uncertainty that he is feeling at that time, instead they just tell him that it is impossible.

from this story, the author wanted to show that parents at that time do not understand their children and there is a gap between the children and the adults.

why did i wrote about this story in my blog today? on one hand it can be a form of revision for my CLL promo exam, on the other hand, which is the more important one, is that i felt as though i am the little boy today. this is because today when i woke up, i have rashes all over my body. i was super worried and i woke my mother up and ask her about it. all that she replied was " oh ok." and went back to sleep. at that time i was really worried and i woke her up again to ask about it. she became frustrated and said " i'm very tired. leave me alone. just go see doctor later lor". i was really saddened by her replies. she sounds as though sleep is much more important than my health.

until here, i suddenly thought about the little boy and his experience with his parents when he knew about the age when he is going to die. i was exactly like him, my mother just ignore about my uncertainty and just 推翻 whatever that i say. it is not that i hate her or whatever, but it is just that i was really saddened. many people say that parents care the most for their child, but this does not make sense today. i wonder, is sleep more important than me?

well... today is a bad day for me... although it started well, but i dunno how come it did not end well... haiz.. anyway, today i went to sch to study with jane and huwei, instead of going to bishan with jeremy to study... (p.s. sorry jeremy, the sch is closer and more convenient) anyway, i thought today should be another day to study. true enough, it was another study day for me... haiz... but we went to mac after the security guard chases us out of school to continue studying. we stayed until about 10pm before we went home.

u may think, what is so bad about this paticular day. actually, i also dunno why i felt emo for today. hm... probably is what huwei said at mac, when i started playing the suduko in jane's phone. he said " hey today what have you studied?" erm... this may seems ordinary for many people, but it actually sounds sacastic to me, it seems like i have not studied anything today. well, whether i have studied should be judged by myself and not other people, thats what i believe. i may have studied only a few things, and i know that u are just joking about it, but i still feel hurt and sad and probably angry. i dunno why, but i just felt like emoing.

exams are coming but i could not feel the urge that was felt a year before, when i was preparing for my O levels. i dunno the reason, but i guessed it is because i become lazy? or i could not be bothered? well, either case is not a good sign and i really want to feel that urge, even when the urge can make me feel nervous, stressed up, depressed and tired, it also gave me the motivation and determination to study. but now, the motivation and all the determination that was once felt were missing and i just feel bored and i dunno what is the point of studying. after all, it is just a A level certificate and it will soon be replaced by a degree certificate, after another 4-5 years. what is the point to study so hard then? the A level cert that we are striving for is only useful for about 4 years and then it will be replaced. to make things worse, the degree cert, will also soon be replaced by our work experiences.

well, no matter what, no matter how all the certs are going to be replaced in a few years time, we should still work hard and achieve that cert. thats what we should do rite? lets take one step at one time. in order to get to Uni to get that degree cert, we must get a good A level cert. furthermore, to get good working experiences, we must get a good job through good degree cert. therefore, we should work hard now and strive for our best.

before the promos starts, i wish all the people that i know in all the JCs to work hard and do well and get promoted =)

YUYUKO'S INTRODUCTION

NAME: Yuyuko Saigyouji
GENDER: Girl of cuz =.=
SPECIES: Ghost
WEAPON USED: Butterflies? Souls? LOL
BEST FRIEND: Yukari Yakumo
SERVANT: Youmu Konpaku

INTRODUCTION TO TOUHOU =)

a shooting game with many different "loli" ( small and cute) female characters
yuyuko is just one of the many characters... other characters
include:
patchouli
cirno
marisa
reimu
yukari
youmu
suika
alice
but my favourite characters are patchouli and yuyuko=)
though i said it is a shooting game, there is one particular game: TH10.5; SWR
, which is not a shooting game but some sort of street fighter game
swr is the only th game, if i'm not wrong, that allows you to play with your friends, not just with the AI (artificial intelligience= computer)

TOUHOU CHAT=)

EXITS

AdONis
AiweI
aUDrEy
AlLeN
CherILyN
cHunGkIt
dEaR
DEnieCe
dIVorCeD HusBAnD=):bInGXuE
dIYaO
eArTHwoRm
jAsMinE
jASpEr
JinGHanG
KaIXin
MaNxInG
MIngguI
QionGHui
QiweI
sHimIN
SyaHRiL
wEiSHEn
WeITiNG
wEiXIn
yIjUN
YinGshI
yOngSIaNG
YonGZhen
yUhUI
ZonA
ZonA

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