.Saturday, October 04, 2008'Saturday, October 04, 2008
well... today is a bad day for me... although it started well, but i dunno how come it did not end well... haiz.. anyway, today i went to sch to study with jane and huwei, instead of going to bishan with jeremy to study... (p.s. sorry jeremy, the sch is closer and more convenient) anyway, i thought today should be another day to study. true enough, it was another study day for me... haiz... but we went to mac after the security guard chases us out of school to continue studying. we stayed until about 10pm before we went home.
u may think, what is so bad about this paticular day. actually, i also dunno why i felt emo for today. hm... probably is what huwei said at mac, when i started playing the suduko in jane's phone. he said " hey today what have you studied?" erm... this may seems ordinary for many people, but it actually sounds sacastic to me, it seems like i have not studied anything today. well, whether i have studied should be judged by myself and not other people, thats what i believe. i may have studied only a few things, and i know that u are just joking about it, but i still feel hurt and sad and probably angry. i dunno why, but i just felt like emoing.
exams are coming but i could not feel the urge that was felt a year before, when i was preparing for my O levels. i dunno the reason, but i guessed it is because i become lazy? or i could not be bothered? well, either case is not a good sign and i really want to feel that urge, even when the urge can make me feel nervous, stressed up, depressed and tired, it also gave me the motivation and determination to study. but now, the motivation and all the determination that was once felt were missing and i just feel bored and i dunno what is the point of studying. after all, it is just a A level certificate and it will soon be replaced by a degree certificate, after another 4-5 years. what is the point to study so hard then? the A level cert that we are striving for is only useful for about 4 years and then it will be replaced. to make things worse, the degree cert, will also soon be replaced by our work experiences.
well, no matter what, no matter how all the certs are going to be replaced in a few years time, we should still work hard and achieve that cert. thats what we should do rite? lets take one step at one time. in order to get to Uni to get that degree cert, we must get a good A level cert. furthermore, to get good working experiences, we must get a good job through good degree cert. therefore, we should work hard now and strive for our best.
before the promos starts, i wish all the people that i know in all the JCs to work hard and do well and get promoted =)
